Sometimes I wish I just knew what God's ultimate plan was for my life.  I know that it is going to be good, but this year has been full of a lot of trials and I am just not sure how much more I can take.  I know that His will is perfect and He will not give me anything more than I can handle and that He is going to work everything out for good....but I just wish I could see the big picture now.  I just feel like I am suppossed to be enjoying this time in my life, but I'm not and I feel like I am missing out on so much because of that.  I feel like my college years are just slipping away and I haven't gotten to experience many of the things I wanted to.  I went home this past weekend and it was so much fun and I didn't want to come back.  I am very much looking forward to Christmas.  Maybe I just need a break from this place and things will be better next semester....but I don't think so.  In the mean time, I am just going to keep on praying and trusting God!!! 

This weekend was ASC Retreat!!  It was lots of fun!!  I love my WIL group!!  They are an amazing group of girls!!  They are crazy and fun, but they are also women who are truly seeking after God!  It was definitely a great weekend!! 

Not really sure what else to say for now.  I have been thinking about a lot of things lately...not really sure about a lot of it.  I don't know........anyways, maybe i will update more later.  Bye Bye for now!!

WHOOP!!!  62-23!!  Gig 'Em Aggies!!!  The game today was awesome!!  Unfortunately we had to leave early.  Rachel and I signed up to decorate cars at church to advertise for Trunk-or-Treat (it is Living Hope's Halloween night).  The fill car trunks with candy and prizes and such and they have a bunch of games.  I have never been, but it sounds like a bunch of fun!!  Anyways, we were supposed to shoe polish cars, for those who wanted to help advertise, during the saturday night service.  Well they just opened up a Bryan location of Living Hope and that is where the Saturday night services are held.  I had never been there and Rachel had only been once, but she didn't drive.  Well we figured we knew where we were going and that we could find it ok.  Well we were very wrong!!!  We got so lost and drove for an hour and 20 min looking for the church.  When we finally got there, they had already finished the cars.  We felt so bad!!  But they forgave us!!  :)  So we are gonna go help in the morning and it is back at the usual location, so surely we can make it there with no problems!! 

So for the exciting part of our evening.......after our long tour of Bryan, Rachel and I decided to get some dinner and go home and watch a movie.  So you have to know that Rachel and I can't make a decision to save our lives and we were debating between Olive Garden and McCalister's.  Finally we decided that the line at Olive Garden was too long and we headed to McCalister's.  Well, right next to there, they have been building a Pei Wei and tonight there were a bunch of cars there and I was like we HAVE to go there (Rachel had never been, but her sister had told her good things).  There was a sign outside that said opening Oct. 17th, but there were cars, so we decided to go in anyway.  When we walked up to order the lady asked if we had an invitation, and we said no, and she was like we are having our promotional night, but that is ok, you can still come even though you don't have an invitation.  So, we order our food and I went to pay and she said normally this would be however much it was, but since it is our promotional night, it is on us!!  So we got our dinner completely free!!  We were so excited!!  God is so good.  After our rough night, He definitely blessed us and lifted our moods with something as simple as a free dinner!!  So all in all, it turned out to be a fun evening and tomorrow we get to shoepolish cars and I am really excited, b/c the ones we saw tonight turned out really cute!!

Goodnight!!

I decided that all classes should be cancelled any time it rains.  Then we could all stay at home in our pjs and watch a movie while it is raining outside!!  Or go outside and play in the rain!!  One of my friends and I used to always play in the rain when we were younger.  I miss that!!  It was so much fun!!!  :)

Rachel and I did some tae bo tonight!!  Rachel is one of my roommates.  She is absolutely AMAZING!!!!  God has definitely blessed her in so many ways.  And He continually uses her to challenge and encourage and teach me everyday!!  She has been such a blessing in my life!!  WOW!!  So...we decided to do some tae bo tonight.  Kristi, my aunt, and I started this summer, about a month before school started and we were really faithful and we even kept each other accountable once I went back to school.  But, the past 2 weeks, I have gotten busy and gotten out of my routine of doing it.  :(  So tonight Rachel and I decided that we were going to start doing it.  And I think she is gonna keep doing it with me!!  Yay for Rachel!!  It is alot more fun and motivating doing it with someone else!!

I have an ochem test on friday and a nutr project due thursday.  I have so much to do and I really should be working now, but I think that I am going to go to bed!!  :)

Goodnight!!

Ever feel like you just don't belong?  That is kind of how I have felt lately.  Actually for a long time.  I just don't feel like I have found my place in the world, I guess.  I mean, yes, I have friends and they are great, but, because I am so shy, it takes along time for me to really open up to people and then, by the time I feel comfortable, I am known as the shy, quiet girl and then it is just weird for me to start opening open.  And then it just becomes a neverending cycle.  I wish I could just get over my nerves, or whatever it is that keeps me introverted, and be outgoing and let people get to know me.  Sometimes I feel like even my closest friends don't completely know the REAL me.  They know the me that I put out there, but I think my insecurities stop me from letting anyone know who I really am.  I think my insecurities have stopped me from doing alot of things.  I feel like I am missing out on all of the exciting, fun parts of college.  I am never going to get these years back and now here I am a junior and my "college experience" will be over in less than 2 years and I think I am going to look back on my time here, and though most of it has been so much fun, I have missed out on so much that I want to do. 

Well, on a happier note......church is tomorrow!!!  yay!!  I absolutely LOVE my church up here.  Our pastor is absolutely AMAZING!!  He is a very "gonna preach the truth and not gonna be afraid to step on a few toes" type of pastor.  I don't think that God ever intended for us to preach the Bible, unless it is going to hurt people's feelings.  He wants us to preach the truth...PERIOD!!!  And that is what Butch, the pastor, does.  He reminds me alot of the pastor that used to be at my church back home.  Anyway, I am finally joining tomorrow.  I have been going to this church for over two years, and I am just now joining...I know, its sad.  But, I never joined my freshman year, because I never wanted to transfer my membership from my church at home.  Well, it turns out that you can have a joint membership!!  yay for that!!  Well, then....you have to attend a membership class before you can join.  This is just a time for Butch to talk to you and let know the true heart of Living Hope.  They have this class once a month and last year, it just seemed every time they had it, my roommate or I, we wanted to go to the class together, had something else going on.  Well, FINALLY we went to the class last week!!  I am so excited!! 

Ok, well this first post, well the first one in a LONG time, has turned out to be kind of long.  Good Bye for now!!